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Rant October 18, 2012

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 9:22 pm

I am somewhat a stubborn person. stubborn and illogical. I guess a lot of us are like that. We may know what we ought to do, and even know the consequences of doing (or not doing) something that we ought.

Even more so when you are about/or will be doing something that is expected of u but someone reminds you to do so (in a short, well, imo, short span of time). My brain will translate it from a perhaps intended “gentle” reminder, to a “nag”

I guess it feels as if the person doesn’t trust you. ESP when that person is someone who’s close to you. For that moment, you feel as if that person is not close to you just becoz the trust seemed to be gone for that moment.


May 3, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 12:18 am
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God I really pray for patience. No point having two, or even three people getting angry. just no point. it doesn’t help. though it feels like it’s going to be gratifying to just splew vulgarities and punch the person in the face, it just ain’t worth it. and in the end, matters get worse. It’s really tempting so God, PLEASE give me strength to not give in to temptation to blow my top!

I need to write my frustrations out in case i implode. I hope while i write this, my comp or this blog does not fail on me as my work comp and email did, which is one of the frustrations that add to my need to blog. coupled with a misunderstanding with my sister. and a less than understanding partner. I feel like shit right now.

and back to the bloody computer that is sluggish to the point of inefficiency to the max. I can go make coffee and come back and still the page will be loading, that, among many other computer problems.
PLUS, the weekly frustration of not being able to send my emails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I usually have abt 400plus unread emails at any given time (except of course during the 1st week of using work email)
and 80% of those emails would be UNRELATED to my work. I get internal SPAM everyday. from HR to other depts that I dun work with. I have to sieve thru the emails everyday with a fine comb to get those relevant emails.
And weekly the email system would email me (and also adding to my already full email) that my emailbox getting full and I will soon NOT BE ABLE to SEND EMAILS!!! tks.
then i will have to drop everything and proceed to filter my emails to delete unimpt emails so I cld send my workmails that matter.
imagine week after week same vicious cycle. i read my emails daily, delete those that dun matter, and archive old emails tt do matter. YET still no space!!! imagine staying back late to do work esp on fri and then imagine the horror on mon after the weekend u see ur emails not sent!!! and still stuck in the outbox!!!!!!!!!!!


April 15, 2011

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 1:20 am

Feeling pretty defeated. Just when things are going well…BAM! life hits u. again.

I hate myself for ranting. Why can’t I just suck it up and “Be a Man”

coz I proli implode…

I dun like to keep score. I like to think that I do good things without expecting return. If I expect something, I think it shouldn’t be called a GOOD thing.

I also hate to justify myself esp to closed ones. Should my love ones TRUST me enuff??

SO while I am relishing the fact that I have more time (so I can do something nice), I get a …

I am actually planning for something nice, this weekend and for the near future. only to be marred by, I guess, I can blame Satan for his efforts to dampen my spirits and probably my sleep as well. Me, PLANNING, AHEAD.

thought it’s a good thing. unfortunately, it turned out to be not.

it’s tiring. and discouraging. I can only push myself to encourage myself in the Lord. Coz man disappoints. But God NEVER.

In God we Trust. Indeed.


Hoping for a better week ahead! March 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 9:36 am

It’s been a crazy stressful week. What’s new right?

sigh, I really wish I blog less of these kind of posts. and sigh less…

It was end of financial year so things got really busy coz I have to ensure my past billings are in order so i had to check thru the past year to make sure all talks are billed. however things are not so straight forward as there would be many constant disruptions coming my way.

Also TPM. the yearly chore one has to go through. Not that it’s bad per se. it’s just wrong timing for me, with the financial year coming to an end. So yesterday, I managed to finish checking (and billing). I was really exhausted so I din get down to doing my TPM.

This morning I woke up…first thing on my mind was TPM. Followed by the talk I have to give later. And my RT and the things I have to do for the wedding.

My sat will be pretty much packed. Sun as well, for the wedding. Thank God I dun mind RT, and the wedding stuff. It’s my one of my best friend’s wedding. So am happy. =)

But I dread doing the TPM in my free time. bleah. gtg…


Wat a day March 11, 2011

Filed under: frustration,life — eujzin @ 1:45 pm

I decided to use back a free WordPress blog than a self-hosted becoz it’s simply much easier to use and less hassle.
Plus I could easily use the WordPress app for android to post.

I am using it now also becoz wat I wanna describe exceeds the word limit for Facebook

Till now ( it’s lunchtime) it’s been an eventful day.

The car felt ‘violated’ coz it was not the way i left it last night. Sure it was at the same parking spot but some things INSIDE the car werewolf not where i left them. My sunnies moved. A/C was left on ( I usually switch it off). I was totally weird out

Then I was caught in a jam. And the school decided to have breakfast which delayed my talk further. By the time the kids were done, It was 1030. 30 mins delay! Left 30 mins to cover the talk! I thot, OK, I can do this but I din expect so many students ask so many questions! And there were some kids that were harder to handle.by the time I was done, I was 15 mins over and exhausted.  It didn’t help that I my throat hurt.

After 2 talks, I had abt 1 and half hrs before the next talk so I it wasn’t logical to go back office. So I quickly tried to find some lunch kakis.  Unfortunately it was either too late, not free or no reply. So I decided to eat @ HPB. BUT luck would have it tt cafe is not fully operational. So OK, nvm there’s always 7-11…BUT of all days…today NO FOOD!!???

What gives?? So decided to go out and eat. (SGH’s too crowded and the next nearest cafe sells rice soaked in chilli oil IMO)
But I couldn’t decide where to eat w/o incurring ERP and parking charges so pondered for ten mins. Finally when I decided,  I drove out of carpark only to get stucked at the gantry coz not enuff $$ in cashcard!? SUAY OR WAT

Haiz…thankfully I managed to find a nice place w free parking nearby. Thank God for Hotel Re!!

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OH GAWD January 4, 2011

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 10:28 am

New year, new rants?

I dun want!!!

but how?? it’s REALLY REALLY hard.

Early morning dun say anything negative or NAG CAN DIE ISSSIT?????!!!!!!!

I was talking to Nat ytd and he mentioned he and his boss respected each other’s time for the first hr when they stepped into the office. Why can’t people get this? I mean, fine, it’s okay if there’s something urgent and u approach the person to ask but almost EVERY morning??? it’s no wonder pple get high stress->hypertension->stroke/cardiac arrests

and nowdays itz SOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooo blooody baaaaaaaaaaad that almost everything sounds like a bloody NAG. it’s like HELLO, do u not trust your own son/bf/long time employee/ol or best fren/watever the close  relation

I think i shld just ‘elope’ to another country and not come back. no man’s an island? I’m beginning to suspect the phrase is invented by people who need to nag

ok, new year, new beginnings. I want things to improve.

God grant me the COURAGE to CHANGE the things i can. the SERENITY to ACCEPT the things I can’t. and the WISDOM to know the difference


OMG December 27, 2010

Filed under: help,lessons,life,Personal — eujzin @ 3:12 pm

Just realised that my past two posts are bitching and whining. hope I turn become some whiney person that I would hate myself for.

God, please help me be a stronger person.

Someone who have the courage to change things (if i could)

serenity to accept the things that I can’t

and strength and wisdom to know the difference!