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Rant October 18, 2012

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 9:22 pm

I am somewhat a stubborn person. stubborn and illogical. I guess a lot of us are like that. We may know what we ought to do, and even know the consequences of doing (or not doing) something that we ought.

Even more so when you are about/or will be doing something that is expected of u but someone reminds you to do so (in a short, well, imo, short span of time). My brain will translate it from a perhaps intended “gentle” reminder, to a “nag”

I guess it feels as if the person doesn’t trust you. ESP when that person is someone who’s close to you. For that moment, you feel as if that person is not close to you just becoz the trust seemed to be gone for that moment.

 

April 15, 2011

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 1:20 am

Feeling pretty defeated. Just when things are going well…BAM! life hits u. again.

I hate myself for ranting. Why can’t I just suck it up and “Be a Man”

coz I proli implode…

I dun like to keep score. I like to think that I do good things without expecting return. If I expect something, I think it shouldn’t be called a GOOD thing.

I also hate to justify myself esp to closed ones. Should my love ones TRUST me enuff??

SO while I am relishing the fact that I have more time (so I can do something nice), I get a …

I am actually planning for something nice, this weekend and for the near future. only to be marred by, I guess, I can blame Satan for his efforts to dampen my spirits and probably my sleep as well. Me, PLANNING, AHEAD.

thought it’s a good thing. unfortunately, it turned out to be not.

it’s tiring. and discouraging. I can only push myself to encourage myself in the Lord. Coz man disappoints. But God NEVER.

In God we Trust. Indeed.

 

OH GAWD January 4, 2011

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 10:28 am

New year, new rants?

I dun want!!!

but how?? it’s REALLY REALLY hard.

Early morning dun say anything negative or NAG CAN DIE ISSSIT?????!!!!!!!

I was talking to Nat ytd and he mentioned he and his boss respected each other’s time for the first hr when they stepped into the office. Why can’t people get this? I mean, fine, it’s okay if there’s something urgent and u approach the person to ask but almost EVERY morning??? it’s no wonder pple get high stress->hypertension->stroke/cardiac arrests

and nowdays itz SOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooo blooody baaaaaaaaaaad that almost everything sounds like a bloody NAG. it’s like HELLO, do u not trust your own son/bf/long time employee/ol or best fren/watever the close¬† relation

I think i shld just ‘elope’ to another country and not come back. no man’s an island? I’m beginning to suspect the phrase is invented by people who need to nag

ok, new year, new beginnings. I want things to improve.

God grant me the COURAGE to CHANGE the things i can. the SERENITY to ACCEPT the things I can’t. and the WISDOM to know the difference

 

OMG December 27, 2010

Filed under: help,lessons,life,Personal — eujzin @ 3:12 pm

Just realised that my past two posts are bitching and whining. hope I turn become some whiney person that I would hate myself for.

God, please help me be a stronger person.

Someone who have the courage to change things (if i could)

serenity to accept the things that I can’t

and strength and wisdom to know the difference!

 

Dunno wat to say

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 3:09 pm

Just had a good weekend, christmas, and staycation despite some hiccups.

Back at home, today, workday but on leave. The feeling was supposed to be wonderful.

This same feeling, same as when i have my staycation. Serenity, tranquility, peace. And quietness.

No incessant reminders of work, of stress in general.

Today WAS supposed to be all that. no one’s supposed to be home. or if they were, this is supposed to be HOME. A place of refuge, a place for sanctuary. AWAY from stress, or the reminders of stress.

Why do parents or people in general like to irritate others with their incessant complaints and nagging. I am fine with CONSTRUCTIVE critism. but it’s another thing altogether when you do not trust someone. and expect the WORSE of every person.

Why can’t we be more tolerant and thoughtful for each other.that way, life will be much much MUCH better with all that lesser stress and duress.

I miss that feeling. I wish I was back…in Wanderlust…

 

Damn if I do, Damn if I don’ August 2, 2010

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 11:02 pm

I can’t believe that despite being a working adult, I thought I would and should be old enough to be able to decide how I want to live my life. It’s not as if I was a druggie or a alcoholic. So what’s wrong with me working late and staying out to chill? Firstly, it’s not as if I could chill at home. Believe you me, I wish I could. NOT with my parents. My sis can and will attest to that. How CAN one chill with all that nagging and constant talking. I am not saying that one shouldn’t communicate with your parents, I am saying that there is a time and place to do certain things. certainly not nag and start the incessant grumbling the MOMENT you step into the house. Could I at LEAST put down my bag, and wash up first? no???

When I make the effort to come home EARLY, I also get nagged. I come home later (to avoid the said nagging…), I OSO bloody KENA nagged. SO HOW??

My goodness…this is not the FIRST time I am whining abt this. I rather not have to whine in the first place. And dun go telling me “Why dun u tell your parents nicely blah blah yada yada”

I DID!!!

SIAN…as if work wasn’t bad enuff…and isn’t home supposed to be a SANCTUARY?? a REFUGE??? a place of REST?????!!!

 

Low February 17, 2010

Filed under: frustration,life,Personal — eujzin @ 11:52 pm

Nobody likes to be told what to do, esp when you are told something that you wouldn’t expect for an adult to be chided about.

sigh…makes u feel so silly. Ashamed and pai-seh is the word. Esp when you know that you have that problem and you’ve been making efforts to improve and just when you thot you did, someone has to pour ‘cold water’ on ya.

such is life…