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May 3, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 12:18 am
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God I really pray for patience. No point having two, or even three people getting angry. just no point. it doesn’t help. though it feels like it’s going to be gratifying to just splew vulgarities and punch the person in the face, it just ain’t worth it. and in the end, matters get worse. It’s really tempting so God, PLEASE give me strength to not give in to temptation to blow my top!

I need to write my frustrations out in case i implode. I hope while i write this, my comp or this blog does not fail on me as my work comp and email did, which is one of the frustrations that add to my need to blog. coupled with a misunderstanding with my sister. and a less than understanding partner. I feel like shit right now.

and back to the bloody computer that is sluggish to the point of inefficiency to the max. I can go make coffee and come back and still the page will be loading, that, among many other computer problems.
PLUS, the weekly frustration of not being able to send my emails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I usually have abt 400plus unread emails at any given time (except of course during the 1st week of using work email)
and 80% of those emails would be UNRELATED to my work. I get internal SPAM everyday. from HR to other depts that I dun work with. I have to sieve thru the emails everyday with a fine comb to get those relevant emails.
And weekly the email system would email me (and also adding to my already full email) that my emailbox getting full and I will soon NOT BE ABLE to SEND EMAILS!!! tks.
then i will have to drop everything and proceed to filter my emails to delete unimpt emails so I cld send my workmails that matter.
imagine week after week same vicious cycle. i read my emails daily, delete those that dun matter, and archive old emails tt do matter. YET still no space!!! imagine staying back late to do work esp on fri and then imagine the horror on mon after the weekend u see ur emails not sent!!! and still stuck in the outbox!!!!!!!!!!!


Hoping for a better week ahead! March 26, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 9:36 am

It’s been a crazy stressful week. What’s new right?

sigh, I really wish I blog less of these kind of posts. and sigh less…

It was end of financial year so things got really busy coz I have to ensure my past billings are in order so i had to check thru the past year to make sure all talks are billed. however things are not so straight forward as there would be many constant disruptions coming my way.

Also TPM. the yearly chore one has to go through. Not that it’s bad per se. it’s just wrong timing for me, with the financial year coming to an end. So yesterday, I managed to finish checking (and billing). I was really exhausted so I din get down to doing my TPM.

This morning I woke up…first thing on my mind was TPM. Followed by the talk I have to give later. And my RT and the things I have to do for the wedding.

My sat will be pretty much packed. Sun as well, for the wedding. Thank God I dun mind RT, and the wedding stuff. It’s my one of my best friend’s wedding. So am happy. =)

But I dread doing the TPM in my free time. bleah. gtg…


Tioman! May 29, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 12:48 am

I wish blogging could be easier…like Twitter or FB

Well…I guess I shld update this blog more often…otherwise my non-FB frenz wun know what’s happening in my life!

So…the latest update…

Well…two words…DIVING! Tioman!

Cya in a few days!


How a quiz defines me July 23, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 5:43 pm

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Try the quiz here


Protected: ?! July 17, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 11:14 pm

Protected: LOST July 5, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 2:10 pm

Am i that useless, so lousy and despicable?

Can’t I do anything right? HAVE I done anything right?!

Here I am, sitting here in the office with intent to do work but just ONE teleconversation can really throw u off tangent. Right now, I feel…lost, guilty, frustrated, and sad.

I just want to be a good person, supportive to the one he loves, be understanding, sensitive, and all that, no i am not going saying crap or nonsense because I believe in these things

Wed: I just thought she was upset because I went karaoke and that she is tired and I was not there for her. Guess she obviously thought I was a bad person and that I just wanted to spend time and not allow her to sleep.  Sigh

Fri:  frustrated at being nagged at. again. I know I am slow. It’s my fault. but just didn’t like it that u fulfuilled my expectation of nagging at me to hurry up and go home. don’t forget u were the one who did nost of the shopping, and i supported u and I don’t even get some understanding?

Sat: I know u have cell dinner. I know ur afternoon is free. I would really love to spend the afternoon with the one I love but I thought you would like to have the free time to yourself. u know, take a nap, do your stuff, me time. Thought u might like that. Just trying to be sensitive. But dunno why u kept insisting that I wear u down. Take up your time. I KNOW that u want me time. I KNOW u are tired. I am being supportive but I know I am not perfect. I am not the best friend. But i am trying. I know it’s no excuse and i admit that I am an impatient person. I have many faults, many flaws, not the most good looking (like a certain Mr Chou), neither am I the most manly. I know I am inferior and pretty useless. I am old. Not earning much and losing hair, overweight.



Filed under: Uncategorized — eujzin @ 12:50 am

Wish I could do more. Wish I could help without adding or causing more burden.

God grant me wisdom